I put my head in to it and it wasn't enough, I didn't make it and I'm sad. I try and I try and I try but I never make it. I'm not a quitter but I nearly can´t handle disappointment anymore. I want to be strong, I am strong, but sometimes I just want to give in.

My head is fill with everything and nothing. I keep telling my self to hold on, but I have told my self to keep on trying for half a year, without the resoults it want(ed). Ohhhhhh. Everything used to be simple, and it would still be, if I went another place, but it's too late to change my mind.

Be strong.